I NEED A FACKING HOLIDAY!


I need to escape, away. from everything.



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sitting here, in this place makes me feel very uneasy, i don't know why i am feeling so low. i'm happy inside, but only when i'm with the right people. i think it's college, work and home life.

my friends are here, i know some of them cant help, but them just being around me, is making me feel a lil better.

i need to escape, from reality, if only for a second.

i need to be with sertain people, but they act as if they don't want to be around me anymore. but i know they do. it's just my mind, it's a mess.

i need to escape.
if only for a while.

i've made things uneasy between us* but i cant see why he's being like this. i jusyt asked him a question, and now he's gone. )= my life will not be the same.

in my eyes friendships are the most important.
love.
and commitment.

i thought i had got it. i thought i had figured it out.
but i don't think i have.

my world is falling apart, is it my fault?

maybe i'm looking to deeply, i should take things as they are and move on, but it's hard when your attatched.

i know i'm feeling like this, but it's not as bad as some of my friends lives. i try and help, but maybe i should sort my own life out first.

this is my essay of my feelings, i could write this forever, but then it wouldn't make sence.
going round in circles isn't fun. i need corners in my life, excitment. and hope.

but what i don't get is that i know i have these things, so why am i feeling like this.!?